no idea

suddenly
the idea of a life
is no longer enough

suddenly
and unexpectedly
the shell
cracks open

suddenly
the parameters
are unclear
the rules
no longer apply

and suddenly
the only sense
is a hunger
a hunger for something
more real
and more raw
than this life had previously allowed

something instinctive
knows
the taste
the texture
of pure being
and will not stop
until this insatiable hunger
is constantly fed

circumstances can be tempting
scenarios can be seductive
the idea of a life
at times
appears to be attainable

but what if…
what if there is no idea
no idea
of what just was
no idea
what comes next
no idea
of what is now
just now
no idea
just now