“Just beyond your story, you will meet yourself at the Gates of Heaven.

And there you will behold a most glorious, and a most humbling sight.”

Chris Spheeris– 5-5–12

SHUT UP AND LISTEN!

Yeah!

You!

I don’t give a DAMN who you think you are!

and I don’t give a DAMN who you think I am!

just SHUT UP

and LISTEN

don’t listen to ME

listen to the part of YOURSELF

THAT’S TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING!

And if you don’t find YOURSELF interesting enough to want to listen to

then you REALLY NEED to

SHUT

THE

HELL

UP!

I want to tell you something…

I want to tell you that YOUR STORY

(you know, your STORY!

THE ONE YOU THINK YOU LIVE IN)

IS BORING!

BORING to ME, and I bet BORING TO EVERYONE!

We’re all just TOO POLITE to tell you

But now I’m going to get past all that

I’m going to muster the COMPASSION to tell YOU

that YOUR STORY IS BORING

and if your story is boring to US,

I know it’s GOT to be boring to YOU!

BUT please…

don’t feel bad,

EVERYONE’S story…is boring…

BUT…the GOOD news

is that YOU’RE not the one who’s WRITING your story.

you never HAVE been !

you never WILL be !

You just THINK you write it…

and the more you BELIEVE you’re writing your story,

the more BORING your story becomes

and the harder you try,

the MORE TEDIOUS AND BORING your story GETS

but don’t worry about it.

We LOVE you.

LIFE loves you.

And we ALL get lost in our story at one time or another

and some people… SOME PEOPLE get lost in their story ALL the time

which all too often KILLS THEM before their heart stops beating

so TRY something…

TRY letting go…

just TRY it…

relax…

surrender…

try auto-pilot…

TRY IT…

you’re probably NOT going to believe what I’m about to tell you,

but check this out:

there’s a SAFETY NET!

Really!

There IS a net!

And as terrifying as it might seem

to let go of what’s familiar

and as petrifying as it might seem

to free-fall

being saved by the net is worth ALL OF IT

BUT…there’s a catch.

A nasty little catch

You have to do this BY yourself

and you have to do this FOR yourself

NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU

NO ONE ELSE CAN CATCH YOU

ONLY YOUR net can only catch YOU…

and YOU can’t catch any one else

JUST

HAVE

FAITH…

because just beyond the threshold of your own silence,

FAITH will be the first THING to meet you.

so DO try your best to DROP YOUR STORY

AND DO try your best to shut up and listen

EVERYTHING IN YOUR STORY is based on the PAST

And the past is DEAD

SO your STORY is dead

too LIMITED to be INTERESTING

AND TOO safe TO BE REAL

TOO dead

TOO boring

TOO limited

TOO safe

and all those pictures you have on your walls?

THEY’RE dead TOO

and don’t fool yourself

no one wants to SEE THEM

any more than they want to hear your STORY

so WHAT I RECOMMEND IS THIS:

get a MATCH

and light a TORCH

and BURN the pictures

and BURN every page of your story

then burn the house down

and blow up YOUR car

empty your pockets

let go of it all!

forget EVERYTHING

YOU DON’T NEED IT

any of it!

and be relieved that you don’t have to spend half your life

showing people the DEAD pictures

and reading people the DEAD story

Because NOW you’ll have a NEW story

and it’ll be written in EVERY PRESENT MOMENT

in your SMILE

in your EYES

in the TONE OF YOUR VOICE

and in the ENERGY THAT YOU EMANATE

and EVERYONE will notice that YOU got a piece of what we’re ALL looking for

a piece

of peace

and you WON’T have to go searching the world

to make your story interesting:

the world will come to YOU

AND THE WORLD will FIND you

it will WANT to find you

a month ago, I went around the world

in search of MY story

And I sat in a room

in a town in Peru

with a shaman

in a hat

HE WAS waving feathers

shaking rattles

chanting

INCANTING

hour after hour

holding space

after we

the “TOURISTS OF LIFE”

drank the green slimy cactus Kool-Aid

known as SAN PEDRO

then…we waited…

we waited till nothing happened…

and we waited some more…

we waited till we got bored and sleepy

waiting…for LIFE to write our next chapter…

till some of us

had to vomit

our indigestible stories

but the shaman…

he was patient

he was tireless

he was relentless

he endured our boredom

he offered NO CONTENT to our story

and when I got BORED with BEING bored

I shut up and started to listen

and THEN AND ONLY THEN

did the ever so patient San Pedro…COME to ME

and I FELT his silent presence

San Pedro…St. Peter…

HE who presides over the Gates of Heaven…

one step PAST my exasperation

one step BEYOND my boredom

one step AFTER my surrender

i looked up

and i saw

WHAT FELT TO BE

THE GATES OF HEAVEN

and to my surprise,

the Gates of Heaven OPENED

AND THEY OPENED IN-WARD

and I began to cry

and I didn’t know why

and for the first time, I didn’t HAVE to know why

I was crying because I couldn’t NOT cry

I was crying because my heart felt

SO…

CLOSE…

TO…

GOD…

I was crying

AND I DIDN’T HAVE TO HAVE A CLUE

as to WHO or WHAT GOD IS

AND I DIDN’T CARE

I WAS CRYING

FEELING GOD’S PRESENCE

EVERYWHERE

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME,

I DIDN’T HAVE TO LOOK ANY FURTHER THAN INSIDE

TO FIND A PIECE OF HEAVEN

and now I see

that I

DON’T

WRITE

MY

STORY

I

AM

MY

STORY

and YOU

are YOUR story

and WE

ARE the MEDICINE

and WE

ARE the DRUG

and WE are the ANDES

and WE are MACHU PICCHU

and I am the SHAMAN

and YOU are the SHAMAN

and I’m sharing this with YOU because YOU’VE EARNED IT!

you have EVOKED me…

INSPIRED ME BEYOND MY STORY

and now…

I can see who YOU are

because I can NOW see who I’m NOT

AND you DON’T COMPLETE me

that’s Hollywood

you EVOKE me

that’s REAL

we are EVOKED

In the DIVINE presence of one another

DIVINITY RECOGNIZING DIVINITY

And now…I’M going to shut up and listen

but before I do, I just want to say this:

I have surrendered my SELF to becoming US

and what you just heard is what WE said

SO don’t let me forget to thank you:

because all that you ARE

and all that you are NOT

has just bought ME

a ticket to heaven

©2012 chris spheeris